My black and my blues.
Something that will never mean anything to you.
You get to wear your blackness when it’s convenient for you.
I have to wear my blackness even when it inconveniences you.
Black people have endured so much within this lifetime that we just really did not ask for. From being sold and stolen from our native lands, to being killed dead in the streets just because of our skin color. The world has not ever been kind to us and I think it is time for us to address that.
I have just finished watching a documentary on Hulu about the Tulsa race riot, titled “Tulsa Burning: The 1921 Race Massacre” and my soul hurts. For literal decades, centuries even, we have been pushed around all over the world and then displaced from our own homes to get kicked out, killed, taunted, and so much more when we try to make a home for ourselves. The people of Tulsa made their own spaces and homes in the city after leaving the South once slavery was abolished and the reconstruction period started. Yet again, they were made to be uncomfortable because white people made it their business to move into this small neighborhood that was not set up for them. How do you want us out of your space and when we leave, you follow us? This year was the 100th anniversary of the Tulsa riots and not too many people even know what happened to this day. An entire city burned down. Hundreds of people killed, because of a story that one woman told about a Black man, in which it may or may not have even been true.
Slavery is a whole different story. Now in some states, legislation and bills are being put into place so that teachers can not teach their students about the REAL history of America and what happened. Do you know how far removed some children are going to be from the truth about the world they live in? This saddens me because a lot of the information I have learned over the years about slavery, riots, massacres and even my own ancestry was not taught in school, but I taught myself. So just imagine what small pieces of information they won’t get the opportunity of learning because of these laws. We are set back so many years because of slavery as a whole. We will never be able to fully catch up in life to where we should be because of slavery. Once slavery was “abolished” we didn’t even know it was abolished until Juneteenth and even now in some places of the world, and in America, slavery still exists. We revolt, we get killed, we respond back when someone of “authority“ is speaking to us, we get hit in the face or slapped on the hood of a police car.
“The system is not broken. The system is working exactly how it is supposed to work.” — Dr. Valerie Smalls
I am not sure who watched the ”The United States v. Billie Holliday” special but it was amazing! The story in itself was sad, but Andra Day did an amazing job playing Ms. Holiday. The story behind “Strange Fruit” was about lynching in the South and the government did not want ANYONE shedding light on the things that they were doing in America and allowing at that. All of this makes me think about what they were really doing to us and how it got hidden because there were no cameras or news reporters around to tell the story. How cell phones became the thing of the 21st Century because now we could take pictures and videos from our pockets and share it with the world to raise awareness. How Philando Castile was shot dead in his car in front of his girlfriend and her child on camera and the police were never thrown in jail for it. How if a brave young woman had not recorded the George Floyd video, if there would have been such an uproar about another Black man being killed By the police. Imagine what is on camera and we just do not know about it. Imagine how many police officers have seen their counterparts beat and possibly kill innocent people and they have been too scared to come forward because they’re scared of being called a whistleblower or being scrutinized by other people on their team. It is a sad reality we live in and there isn’t always justice for the people who are affected by it.
The prison industry is a form of modern day slavery. I believe I spoke on this topic briefly before in another blog post, but there isn’t enough talk about this. After experiencing living through COVID on the outside, I often thought about the people who had to deal with it on the inside. Inmates already deal with harsh conditions while they are inside, so to hear that during COVID they didn’t even have enough masks for the inmates was very alarming. You have guards coming in and out of the jail/prisons daily living their own lives, of course the virus was going to come into the jails. They had no “social distancing” in a small cell.
I know it seems as if I’m rambling about a whole bunch of different things, and I just very well may be, but a lot just has been going through my mind about all of these major life changing events Tha took place in the name of Black people. We have endured so much trauma within the past few decades, generations, even currently we are facing a lot. Did y’all know trauma can be passed down in your bloodline? Like trauma is literally genetic and if it doesn’t get solved from your grandma, mom, even your great grandma, it can come down to you? It is very crazy to know that and have it potentially be happening to you and you may never know.
Well that’s enough history for today y’all. I hope I made some sense to all of you and you take in what I said. Also, if you haven’t checked out the shows I mentioned, go take a look at them.
Love is light,